Sunday, October 11, 2009
mood | still worried and scared.. and sad too.. music | Simple PlanI heard that Bessie was diagnosed with aneurysm and that she was supposed to have her operation today.. I still don't know how that went.. I just hope she's ok.. We love you, Bessie... <3Anyway, finals are coming up.. I only have 2 exams, NCMLEC on Tues and NCMRLE on Thurs, so it's all good.. I PROMISE I'm gonna start studying later! :)I'm still preparing our surprise for one of my best friends, Pat :) Her birthday's on the 16th and I'm sure she's gonna flip out when she gets our surprise! ;)
xoxo, jeime <3
Saturday, October 10, 2009
mood | worried & scared
music | *silence*
Today was the best/worst day ever...Which part do ya'll wanna hear first??Well, let's go with the best part first..So, we had this game in our Rizal class today and the prize was that the champion (per class) was gonna be exempted in our final exam.. and fcuk yeah, WE WON! woohoo! :))Okay.. onto the bad part..Before class started, we heard that one of our classmates (Yach) plus another batchmate (Robert) got into an accident late last night. And I mean, a BIG accident!They were driving home, and they drove into a truck. I saw the pictures and it was really such a MIRACLE that they got out of their alive!Yach only got a few bruises on his face and arms.. but Robert broke his leg.. so, bad news for him cuz he won't be able to go to school next semester.. which means he'll not be graduating this April.. which totally sucks, i know right!? :((Then, before the game started, we were waiting for our groupmate, Bessie.. We kept calling her, but she wouldn't answer the phone.. Then we found out that she got hospitalized too! She had severe headache and she was vomiting a lot..We visited them after class today.. The 2 guys seemed ok.. but Bessie was in pretty bad shape.. We couldn't talk to her.. And I just found out now that she got transfered to the ICU and will probably be transfered to a hospital in Manila tomorrow.. damn.. :,((Guys, whoever's reading this.. please pray for Yach, Robert and Bessie's fast recovery.. we love them to death! :,(( Me and Bessie xoxo, jeime <3
Sunday, October 4, 2009
mood | relievedmusic | *raindrops*Yes, everything's a-ok again.We talked, he apologized. We're reconciled.He was and is still scared to lose me, and he proved it yesterday.Just in time too..It's our 39th monthsary today. :)Happy 39th month, babe.I told you yesterday that this is your LAST chance, and I meant it.Well, anyway, let's just have fun today and forget about what happened.I LOVE YOU... <333xoxo, jeime
Saturday, October 3, 2009
mood | still.. sad.music | Bob MarleyTalked to an old friend this morning thru the FB chat.And I honestly felt better because of our talk.She cleared my head and made me realize a LOT of things.And I thank her SO much for that.I LOVE YOU, Pinky!You're an awesome friend!Even though, we're like a million miles away from each other now, you're still always there for me.You're always that someone I can count on.. I can lean on..THANK YOU! <3So, yeah, I think I've decided, but we'll see.I still wanna talk to him before fully deciding on it.Like I said before..I just hope that, whatever happens, everything will be alright.♪Don't worry about a thing.. cuz every little thing is gonna be alright♪xoxo, jeime
Friday, October 2, 2009
mood | sad + confused + angrymusic | *silence*I just really have to get this out or I might explode.So, last night, AJ and I got into a fight. And I feel it's rather different now.Before, after we fight I always want to talk to him about it soon after that.Now, I didn't even call him. And yes, he didn't call or text me either.I know he loves me. I can feel it. He lets me feel it.He always takes care of me, always has been my shoulder to cry on, always protects me.I really am always MYSELF when I'm with him.But his one problem - honesty.He doesn't lie very often, but when he does.... Of course, it just totally breaks my heart.It's like he loves me but he doesn't respect me.I haven't done anything like this to him EVER!I don't lie to him cuz that's what I want him to do too!All I've wanted was for us to be open with each other.I told him that, no matter what, he must tell me everything, no matter how he thinks it might be painful for me to hear. Just as long as I know he's telling the truth.2nd chance? More like 10 chances! And now, I think I've really had enough.I don't wanna cry, but I feel like if I don't I can't feel better about this.I don't wanna cry cuz I wanna be strong!I don't wanna cry over a guy.. even though I know how much I love him.
I talked to 2 of my closest friends this morning.
They said I should just take time and think about it.
And that's what I'm doing... and I hate it! I don't wanna think about it anymore!
Everytime I think about it, my heart REALLY hurts... and it sucks! It fucking sucks!
I'm confused.. angry.. sad..
I wanna break it off but every time those happy memories shot through my mind, I think otherwise...
And every time I remember what happened last night, I go back to wanting to break it off..
I really really really hate feeling like this.
I just hope no matter what happens everything will still be ok.
I hope if I still decide to keep this going, nothing like this would happen EVER AGAIN.
Or if I decide to break up with him, then I hope we'll still be really good friends.
xoxo, jeime
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